what now?...

Mind is not functioning the way I’d like... or the way it did, even a couple of years ago... unless I’m in denial... that could be...

There never seems to be enough time to get what I need done, what I want done, and I don’t see how things will really change even when I start a new path... I’ve allowed myself to again be dictated to, driven by, and cornered by deadlines, commitments social, personal, and business... And (seemingly) all it took was working at a “full time job” for more than a couple of months at-a time (a year and a half now) and personal relationships that I’m not sure are going to be very good for me... too confining; need my space... convenience and economic needs not withstanding… I may have to disappear for quite awhile to find myself again... that takes time... don’t have it here and now...